Summary of Book: When Lily meets a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily’s life suddenly seems almost too good to be true. But when questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan — her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened.
“There is no such thing as bad people. We’re all just people who sometimes do bad things.”
This book needs to come with a trigger warning; not only does this talk about emotional and verbal abuse, but this talks about physical abuse. Not only talks about it but almost revolves around it. Both Lily and her mother have gone through physically abusive relationships and although the book ends on an uplifting, ‘change the pattern’ tone, still, that trigger warning needs to be said before anything else.
“Just because someone hurts you doesn’t mean you can simply stop loving them. It’s not a person’s actions that hurt the most. It’s the love. If there was no love attached to the action, the pain would be a little easier to bear.”
This made me go through a roller coaster of emotions. I got excited when Lily and Ryle met because their connect was genuine and real. It was palpable. But then I felt nervous when Ryle started to show signs of violence. I got excited again when Lily went back into the past and we got to see her relationship with her first ever love Atlas. I got sad when I realized that Atlas was no longer in her life. I got disturbed when Lily began to live through the same violent relationship her mother went through. I was more than happy when Atlas popped back up into her life and then that’s where the story begins to tumble downward into this spiral of me being in love with Lily and Atlas reconnecting but being honestly terrified for the horrible way that Lily and Ryle’s relationship was spiraling downward.
“Fifteen seconds. That’s all it takes to completely change everything about a person. Fifteen.”
My heart was in my throat the entire time I read this and even though there were tough scenes and chapters that felt like it was too much, I couldn’t put the book down. Colleen Hoover has this way of writing that makes you instantly invested in her characters, good and bad. I wanted nothing but the best for Lily and I wanted her to get the hell away from Ryle, but at the same time, there was so much good in Ryle that it made you love him, in a twisted way. And then there’s Atlas who is just… good. So damn good. It was one confusing as hell book and I mean that in the realest, best way possible.
“Just because we didn’t end up on the same wave, doesn’t mean we aren’t still a part of the same ocean.”
This book, after reading it and digesting it, became one of my favorite books of all time and it’s kept it’s spot year after year. It’s an emotionally challenging book that will capture your heart, rip it to fucking shreds, and then slowly glue the pieces back together again. If you were looking to read a light, happy book, this is not it. At all. This is deep and powerful and speaks volumes. This is the type of book that more people need to read, this is the type of book that I’d like to see more of. This is the type of book that will change your world. It’s needed. It’s wonderful. And it’s fucking amazing.
“It stops here. With me and you. It ends with us.”